tuesday-18/08/09

"nabil, motor tu!!!" eka screamed at me..
i was blurred at that time..really blurred n i wasn't sure with what happen..i was thinking of something and all d presentations that i got to do that evening..n also bout my fren who got fever..thinking that maybe something worst had happened to her because she didn't pick up her phone when i called..only when a motorcycle stopped with just only a few inches right in front of me then, i realized that actually i was nearly got hit by d motorcycle..but i still didn't feel anything like nervous or afraid because i can't think rationally at that time..maybe because i didn't have enough sleep n i felt a bit tired...

however, i did all my presentations in d evening..the first presentation was bout a poem by Emily Dickinson..here is d poem:

I’m nobody! Who are you?
Are you nobody, too? Then, there’s a pair of us- don’t tell!
They’d advertise- you know!

How dreary to be somebody!
How public like a frog
To tell one’s name the livelong day
To an admiring bog!

sometimes, i feel that the poem has got something to do with my life..huhu..luckily i feel that being the somebody must be terrible than being a nobody as they keep telling people the same thing..haha..at least, i'm not telling people the same old thing again n again..

then, another presentation about health in d next class was being done by me..it's bout cholesterol level in our body..at first,i thought that was a lil' bit messy but after thinking bout it again, maybe i did it well. i don't know..my frens said both of my presentations were good n dat's making me feel good..

which one??

help me to choose which one of the following phones..

can't sleep again!!

haha..can't sleep tonight..tomorrow will b my first test of intro to language n linguistics...i don't really know what's gonna happen wit me this sem..really don't know how am i going to face all d problems n challenges dat will come later..i know what kind of probs are them but i can't do nothing to prevent it..syahid says juz face d music..haha..so, dats what i'm gonna do..i'll just face d music of my life..i'm stuck in d middle of two things..between my feelings n others'..which one should come first??i can't make people happy n at d same time i'll b happy too..there's always sacrifices...

to NUR ELLISYA MAISARAH SOHKDI N FAMILY...i miss u a lot..if only i could fly back even for just a minute..i will..just to take a look at you..n kiss u, give u the warmest hug i could possibly give..balqis don't be naughty ea..ur mama must be tired coz need to take care of u, ur two naughty bros, ur new sis n also ur abah..be a gud, nice sis eh..i'll b back one day before raya..balqis please help ur mama make raya cookies n change the curtains..huhu..when i get home i want to see it lor...

to Ifayoung, may u be happy wit ur new car..after this, i don't want u to be sad anymore..

to Inayoung, GUD LUCK for ur interview..nnti dpt keje don't forget to treat me NASI ARAB taw!!

to the head of Young's family n wife(umi n abah la) i miss u a lot..huhu..take gud care of urself k..

to Nuaryoung, slamat berbahgia ngan wife tersayang..can't wait to have nephew/niece from u guys..huhu

to Imyoung, pandai2 la idop kt s.alam..b patient..there's always good things waiting behind all the bad things happen..it's just a matter or realizing it..

p/s:it's like giving a speech for winning grammy award..huhu...besela lame x post..this week start pose..

lastly,
SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN TO ALL MUSLIMS

newborn baby

haha..yesterday i got gud news from my mom telling that i've got another niece born on yesterday's morning..huhu..feel really excited..can't describe how hepi i am now..now the issue is on the baby's name..wheather NUR ALLISYA MAISARAH or NUR ELLISYA MAISARAH..both are cun names babe!!

now i really can't wait to go home..wanna hug, kiss my new niece..wanna take really gud care of her..there gone all my probs for a while when i received the news..i wanna go home this weekend but umi doesn't allow me..she just asked to wait n come home till raya time..waaa it's very long time umi..terseksa jiwa ni..huhu

last saturday, our faculty made an activity that was an induction induction programme with the seniors at Bukit Cerakah in Shah Alam..it was a nice day..i got into group of 11 and most of us were from the same class..so, there's nothing to be afraid of in the ice-breaking..we had lots of activities that we did together which were very exciting..we had poco-poco dance using "boom boom pow" song and we had explorace in the evening..then, we had a little 'sukaneka' and it was extremey enjoyabe even if all of us got to be thrown with flour by our seniors because we didn't give full commitment at the beginning of the day..the 12 hours programme was very interesting even if we're very tired..

ah-ha..i forgot to that our group's name was 'smilecrews' and our tagline was "say CHEESE!!"..n our motto was smile or die..well, by having this programme we got to know each other closer and we could see how was the team co-operate in competing the task..

can't sleep well...nightmares

love

sympathy

honesty

trust


which one of d above is the most important thing in having a relationship??doesn't matter in what kind of relationship..is it in frenship, marriage or in couple's life??for me, i'll make it this way..especially in friendship

1.honesty

2.trust

3.love

4.sympathy

why must honesty is at the top?bcoz i can't sleep well if i know that there's someone who cheating on me!especially d one whom i loved..i've been experiencing it lately..i can't sleep well n if i got to sleep i'll have some kind of nightmares..doesn't matter y they cheat..but if they could cheat on me y are they cannot tell me d truth??i can accept truth even if it's hurt most but i can't accept lies even if they're nice to b heard...n now i really can't sleep bcoz i feel that there's someone who's lying to me..bout their past..plus, i never lied to them..i guessed..i don't know if what i am thinking now is true but i hope it's not..really hope it's not..coz i hate myself when i'm making bad assumptions n finally d assumptions turned out to b true bout someone or something..n there are time when my assumptions came true..some of my friends noticed it..usually, i don't tell anyone bout my assumptions except for one person..now i just can't accept anymore lies from them..please tell d truth..i can accept truth even if it hurts me or urselves..just be honest please..coz i don't like hearing d truth from other people..i want to hear it from the person themselves..on their own..probably if a person tell lies is to hide their bad attitude bcoz they think people won't accept them anymore but that's other people..not me..s long s being honest with me i can accept urselves in a positive way of coz..no matter what have u told me before this..IT IS NEVER TOO LATE..it's just a matter of telling d truth to others..please people out there..don't b afraid..please help me get a well-sleep..:p

we made it!!

hahaha...finally i got band 4 for muet...i checked it thru sms at 12 something in d early morning of monday but i never got replied..so, i slept n woke at 3 am n checked my inbox..i was surprised to see a message stating i got band 4 for muet..i didn't expect to get that as my speaking assessment was not as good as before..i cannot talk much bcoz of the point given was not really helping me..the question was "y people resume their studies n have a life-long learning?" or something like that n my point was that people resume their studies for making new friends..well, what d heck was am i gonna talk about??i never found someone who further their studies in purpose of making new friends..so, task A was quite tough for me as i had to give reasons to support my point..in 2nd task i tried to argue with my friends to stand on my point but realizing my point was not strong enough n one of my fren's point was making sense so, i just disagree with my point and agree with her...and that's making our discussion end..

probably at after 7 am in the morning i texted my fren in maktab telling her bout muet..whether she wanted to check on her own or did she want me to check for her..so she asked me to check for her n glad to hear, she made it too!!she said she's screaming in the car bcoz of overjoyed while she's on her way to register for maktab..hahaha..she must be really happy..n i'm overjoyed too..that's making that monday one of the happiest days in my life..there are also some of my friends who got band 4 n we're very happy..

now, should i continue my dream to be one of the people studying B.ed TESL???i'm confused...my intention of repeating muet was to get into b.ed tesl and have the satisfaction for myself but now, i'm not sure with what i should do in my degree programme..should i continue with pro communication or apply for b.ed tesl once again?..hope someone can help me with that..sometimes, i feel that pro communication is much better than tesl bcoz it has wider job opportunities but i don't know...i'm just confused..both r doing english in it's own way n i'm not sure which one is better..

best wishes to all teachers to be!!!

tomorrow some of my frens will register at mktab..some are sure with their decision n some aren't..some of them who don't really want to go to mktab but they still go for it bcoz of secure job they'll have after joining mktab..i don't underestimate them bcoz sometimes, i feel regret for not applying for mktab but when i think back,after making judgement, i'm quite sure that i can still b a succsessful person in having a better job than teacher after graduating my dgree programme..i'm planning of something that can benefit me more..i don't wanna trap in the lifestyle for many people where they think their houses is one of the assets..
i'm thinking of something that can be made business..

i forgot that the reason i'm writing now is to wish all of my frens best of luck in maktab..we're in our own ways now..but i hope all of us can keep in touch k..just remember that no matter what we're doing for our future there will always ways for us to live with comfort..juz dare to fail in what you do n then there will b chances of success for us..dare to take the risk..

a week in s.alam

one week in s.alam..it's a very tiring, exhausted week in my life..huhu..well,before this my life routine was simple..no need to catch d bus, walking kilometres everyday..now, there's no more laziness in life like i used to have in d past..well, maybe a little laziness won't be a problem..huhu..i'm taking japanese as my 3rd language..i have no choice bcoz mandarin class is already full..the lecturers n frens are nice..juz a matter of adaptation for me..now i remember my former lecturer in kuatan used to say when i need to stay in b.sekilau while my classes were in pdg lalang..he said"it's a matter of adaptations..you just need to adapt..."now i know that's true..

although everything seems to be fine..i always think that how my life would be if all my frens in kuantan are here with me...i bet it wouldn't b d same and maybe i'm not gonna change..

u,thanx for d shirt, i never thought you'll buy it for me..i noticed that you were acting stranged when you wanted to buy it but i thought that was only my feeling..thanx once again..i really wanna wear it but not for now bcoz u know myself right..i'll wear it when the time comes..n i'll tell u when it is..

feel free to share ur joy n sadness..i'll always free to you my fren..like i used to tell you..u know my contact number so, juz text me i u have anything to say about anything that u want to say k?even if we're quite far..now i'm listening to mr.maker..i keep listening to it like u used to listen to katy perry-thinking of u for hundred times a day..mr.maker is a great song..the melody is superb!!

haha..back to my university life..now i'm getting lots of assignments form all lecturers n i need to do it immediately..no more procrastinating this time..huhu..

forgot to mention here..my frens n i were getting lost for a few times when we went out..luckily, we always had people to be asked..hihi..that's my experience staying here..now all three of them have gone out n left me here with the internet..i'm juz too lazy to go out..haha

a new me

tomorrow is my big day that will change my entire life..i'm going to be a student in apb faculty in uitm s.alam..english for pro. communication..i don't even know exactly what it is..leave that behind for a while..some of my frens are not going to study with me anymore..i'm very sad..huhuhu..some are going to be teachers in the next 5 years and i hope they would't regret it..well, of coz not!!no one got frusted after getting into maktab..nice,secure job..

however,knowing all my fren for a year in kuantan had really taught me bout many things in our life..about frenship,love,humanity and many more..i think now i'm more mature than before..well,thanx a lot to them..

i hope that we will remain bestfren after this and will always keep in touch no matter what happens..if U all read my blog, keep following bcoz u'll know more bout me..i hope u will success n no more sad stories in ur life k..don't make same mistake like we did in kuantan..got wrong frens,wrong attitude in study and wrong choice in choosing TESL foundation..please pray for me n for our happiness in d future..may Allah will always bless u..thanx for being my frens..

p/s:for besties..u will remain my best buddy..huu